I’m back.
I need to be back blogging. I need to be talking about what’s going on in my life.
I need the support.
What a roller coaster it has been the past almost 6 months, and yes, its’ still going. I can’t talk about the details since we are still in litigation. Just put it this way- we’ve come a long way, but there is still a long way to go.
I’m doing well but my life has changed dramatically. I’ve gone back to teaching, which is a HUGE adjustment. Its not too bad, but its still hard to get the routine down. I am so blessed to be working at a school that is accommodating and understanding to myself and the girls. I miss the girls terribly when I’m at work, but its so nice to know that I am able to come home and love on them as much as I can.
The girls are getting through everything. Kaylee doesn’t seem to be bothered from as much of the changes as Reagan. Kaylee just goes about her business and gets into everything as usual. Kaylee is a riot and I’ve got my hands full with her.
Reagan, on the other hand, is having a more difficult time with all the changes. She is currently seeing a therapist once a week who’s helping us -and her- see that the changes are OK. Reagan has a tendency to defend and hide her emotions.
It’s hard to explain to a 4 year old that its ok to feel frustrated and angry, but that she needs to talk to us about how she’s feeling and not hold it in.
I know ya’ll are curious as to why I’m back blogging.
I’m back blogging because I need an outlet, I want to let people know that as much as it sucks going through a divorce, that for me its made me become such a better person. I don’t think I’ve ever been happier in my life.
I’m finally taking care of myself and the girls. I’m able to practice yoga daily (which I really do!). I’m able to enjoy the girls more than ever, and the best part is I’m beginning to love myself again.
I’m loving myself for who I am, for what I’ve become and the things I’ve gone through. It’s been a journey, but it’s been an incredible journey to see how much I’ve changed and how much I’ve learned about myself and others.
And I’m so glad to be back, did I mention that? I’m also thankful to Trisha who has truly been my rock. She has helped me get through the toughest parts.
So here I am.
And I’m back with a vengeance.
~Alicia
Sometimes the greatest support and encouragement can be found in the blogosphere. :O) ((hugs))
Vent as much as you need to, Alicia. It might even be interesting since I am in the minority here (as a man). It might be refreshing to get views from “this side” too if you know what I mean.
Hey Alicia,
I don’t get over here too often, but i happened to click over today and read this post. I wanted to just send you a virtual hug as I’m going through the same.exact.thing. It’s scary and exhilarating, and sad but then happy. I wish you the very best, glad to see you’re back doing something you love. If you ever need an empathetic ear, you know how to find me. –E
Glad to see you’re back! Nothing but good for you in the future!
So good to see you back! Sending you love.
I’m so grateful for the welcome! It feels good to be back and I look forward to getting to know everyone again!
Welcome back Alicia! I’m sorry you’ve had a rough 6 months, but I’m thrilled to hear that your happy again. I was 7 when my parents took me to counceling because they were getting divorced, there were lots of other issues between them that I won’t talk about, but the counseling was actually pretty hard on me. I didn’t want to talk to a stranger I wanted my family to talk to me. I’m sorry maybe I shouldn’t have said that, it’s not my place. Yet I’m not backspacing – maybe b/c the subject hits close to home? I wish you and your girls the best of luck, you’ll all get through this. Warm wishes for the holiday season!
Thanks for the advice!
Reagan is only 4 and it’s play therapy. She is enjoying it. And looks forward to the “talking” doctor
Welcome back! I’m so glad to hear you are doing good!
Glad to see you back! Teaching, huh? I know there has to be a special place in this world for teachers. Sounds like through all the crap you’re making a lot of positive changes for yourself and the girls. I look forward to reading what you have to write.
Welcome back! It’s always nice to know as women that we can stand on our own having a wonderful support team of other women behind us.
Welcome back Alicia. I have not been given the chance to get to know you as I would like, I hope that changes.
Lee
So glad you are back! I love you and you are truly a beautiful inside and out!