You know I have one child. And I am terrified of having MORE then one child. My mind races thinking about it….what if I don’t have the money, the time, the patience…goodness, how patient I was with Charlotte, I am not that person now, right? What if I don’t love a new baby the same way, what if Charlotte hates me, what if I get fat and cant lose the weight and my husband isn’t attracted to me anymore.
I’m like a damn crazy person.
Then they other side goes…what if my child gets too spoiled, what if she is lonely, what if she grows up without a brother and sister and hates me for it, my parents want more grandchildren, my DH WANTS more children, what if I am too selfish in this, what if Charlotte grows up and I wish I had taken the time to have more kids, what if i have a boy and have to touch a penis…. I am 30…..what if my time is almost up.
See. Crazy.
Total TMI ahead. Skip if you don’t know me well or want to know me well.
I gave the, ahem, no condom ok last night for the first time in like…….4 years. So now the question is…..what if I am pregnant.
Trisha
Holy Free-Swimmers Alert, Bat girl! I hope whichever happens you are at peace with it and it brings you joy! It’s kinda like standing on the high dive platform above the pool looking down; there’s only so much time that can pass before you just walk off or climb back down.
I had two children, a boy and a girl, ages 6 and 8. The perfect scenario, the perfect ages, both in school. Then the test showed up positive, and my friend reminded me of how you don’t get any sleep that first year and the baby’s on you all the time, etc. etc. I wanted to cry. He’s four months old now and I’m loving every second of it. Good luck.
This is exciting! I will guess that you are not pregnant. But… you will WANT to try again!!!
Go for it! 2 is fun!
Trisha, yay for you on the no condom. Believe me from a mom of 3, all your fears are just that, fear. Once it happens you will wonder why you didn’t do it sooner.
I would cry. Yep.. met you a few months ago and think you are great. If you got pregnant again, I’d cry alot, and make you lots of baby cakes and baby wreaths and spoil you from far far away!
*excited twitter*
I’d love it!
Now, I can say that because I won’t be the one with the pregnancy stuff going on, but, I think you are a fun mommy now, why not be a fun mommy for another little one?
WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! I can’t wait to hear about your BFP. I totally think you’ll have a boy next.
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Really, it’s not so bad adding another one to the family. The age gap between our two is almost 8 years. I wanted to be done having kids by the time I was 30…never thought it would happen and it did.
I’ll tell you what, there is nothing that warms my heart more than seeing the baby’s face light up because her big brother walked into the room. It’s amazing!
yeah for {trying}!!! I have 2 kids & it is sooooo wonderful to see them together.
The second babe is much easier to navigate than the first…well most times =) You will be so fine because you know so much more than you realize!!!!
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