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It was 8am.

I was laying in bed sleeping (I have an upstairs room facing the backyard) and I am awakened to talking that sounds like my child outside. Surely, not my child because I hadn’t heard her wake up, she hadn’t come in our room, hadn’t turned on the TV downstairs, nothing. I am not a heavy sleeper by any means. Her door opening would have usually triggered me.

I listened again.

Then I knew I heard her for sure and it was coming from outside. I got up and looked outside through the blinds and she was standing on the pool ladder, on the top, in her pajamas.

I have never flown more fast out of my bed and downstairs. As I rounded the backdoor, she was coming inside. I wanted to yell at her and I couldn’t it was so scary.

I told her that she couldn’t ever ever go outside alone (that was the first thing) and never get in the pool without us. We talked to her about this when we first got it too.

She said “I was just touching it”. In her mind, she was not getting in the pool, she was just ‘touching the water’ and coming back inside. She was still minding what we told her.  I never thought how literal she would take what we told her. At 4 years old, she doesn’t comprehend that she can still fall in, hit her head, and die. Or get her leg caught in the ladder and fall face forward and drown.

My DH was telling her there are things in life you cant control. Its not always about what your intentions are.

My heart is still racing.

Really, what if…

~Trisha

UPDATED ON JULyY 3rd

We got door alarms. :-)