BIG, HUGE NEWS back in October?
I’m starting to get all panicky and freaked out over the mere THOUGHT of getting pregnant again. See, in October, apparently in a delusional moment, I told my DH that suuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrre, we can have another baby, if you wait till BlogHer is over. I didn’t want to travel fat, sick, and full of milk. Its a fair request, right? He wants like 155 kids. I want like 0-1. I am obviously compromising. (it’s clearly my best trait)
No matter how long you have known me, one thing you probably know is my fear of:
1) pregnancy
2) labor
Now its March and I have like 4 months before I promised I wouldn’t care if I got pregnant. Was I drunk when I made that deal? Which one of y’all talked me into this?! It’s like impending doomsday that you know is coming. All these questions run through my head. What if I get fat and cant lose the weight? What if I cant make it through labor? How the hell can I love more then one kid? I am shocked I kept one kid this long alive; I kill plants by looking at them. Will I have to close my business? What if I fall and cant get up? What if I never get to have one free moment/vacation for the Rest. Of. My. Life.
I can’t even get my in laws to visit the child I have now. What’s the point of having another one?
If I get pregnant its going to be a Looooooooooong 10 months for my blog visitors, so this is my pre-apology. I’ll be too busy b*tching about pregnancy to give this to you again, so please remember it.
Why do babies skeer me?
~Trisha
Wish I could help you, but you’d hate my answers that I loved being pregnant and really, really want more – I’m just single so don’t really have the option unless there’s some big changes in my life. Did you have an easy pregnancy/delivery the first time? Maybe I was lucky and if there is a next time, I’ll change my mind, but so far, I thought it was all great and worth it. I have 6 brothers and sisters and would love to have 3 or 4 myself.