Well, today is the day.
The day my Sebastian goes into surgery, inevitably pissed that he is at the vet yet again, and wakes up with three legs. I wonder what he will think. I wonder if he will wake up and think, why cant I stand? Why does it hurt? Why could I stand yesterday and not today?
It’s just so …shitty.
Here he is, this animal that trusts me. Trusts me to feed him and care for him and love him and keep him safe and I drive him to his doom. I know its all we can do. He will come home once they deem him on his way to recovery and able to walk on 3 legs.
I would like to think in my head that this, this is the last time. The last time I will ever have to worry about a pet, a child, a family member going into surgery. That this is the last time I will face a decision that will change someone who is close to me forever.
But it wont be.
And doesn’t it just suck to be the mom some days?
~Trisha
Trisha,
I feel your pain. Last Thursday morning my 9 year old black lab threw up green stuff so my DH took her to the vet. After a bunch of test he called to say she had a Hemangioma (malignant blood tumor) in her liver that was bleeding out into her body. The prognosis was terrible: 1 week with just surgery, 5 mos. with surgery and chemo. All of which amounted to no quality of life! We had to make the worse decision, to put her to sleep. This is the third dog I’ve had to put to sleep and it never gets easier. My DH and I went to the vets and I laid in her kennel with her, put her head on my lap and talked to her. I told her we loved her very much and that we would never forget her. Then I told the vet I was ready. I think he expected me to leave, but there was no way I was going to leave her. She has been a significant part of our life, always there for me with unconditional love. I was going to be there with her until the end, and I was.
You are fortunate that Sebastian is still with you. Life just isn’t the same when your fur-child is gone.
Kathleen
Kathleen, thankyou for sharing your story. I am so so sorry for your loss.
Hope all goes well with Sebastian. Just think some people don’t even tend to their pets needs. You are doing what’s best for him.
Hey now…be sure an update on the old boy when you can.
I hate to see our fur babies suffer but he will bounce back after he is through being STINKIN’ mad for a few days.
he comes home today at noon! ill update with some pictures
I hope everything goes well. Our female had major surgery about 2 years ago and while it saved her life, it was really tough. Being a mom is hard stuff, whether it’s to a kid or a cat.
When I was about 7 or 8 one of our family cats had to have an ear and a leg amputated. The vet said she’d survive maybe a year, but that cat was still around on my wedding day! She was able to get around pretty well. Animals seem to adapt pretty well to things like that. I know how hard it is to make decisions like that. I still feel so bad about the decision to put Lucky to sleep. That was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.
chris told me about your loss of lucky. I am so sorry jenny
I agree with both Kelly and Cat – it does suck to be a mom when making decisions like this…and for a Dad too…
The best decisions are always the toughest ones to make…and this is just one of those tough ones. While Sebastian can’t thank you, I’m sure he would if he could…or maybe he’ll just piss on your bed and you’ll be even.
well, maybe he wont be able to jump on the bed to piss on it. Napolean does that instead.
Yep sometimes being a mom sucks