ww34We decided to dedicate our Wordless Wednesday to a fallen friend. I cant leave it wordless because its not a wordless moment. Over the past 24 hours I have gone through such a myriad of emotions that I am exhausted. I have been spending some time talking to Karissa’s family and close personal friends and the one thing we all have in common was our love for this very special person.

Very simply, we are sad. We miss a friend. We wonder where we went wrong, every conversation is poured over and dissected in hopes of finding an answer; anything.

And the truth is there was no magic sign in neon lights to keep us from hitting this brick wall. This was her path. We were only momentarily sharing it.

I live several lives. I live the Trisha that is a mom and a wife, that makes dinner or avoids making dinner, that plays crafts and watches movies, and adores my family. I live the Trisha in a personal blog that gets to rant and rave and otherwise create a ruckus in 500 words on a small soapbox. I live the Trisha that does nothing more then chat all day with friends, share advice, games, and have fun. I live the Trisha that is only business, helps women grow, consults, and works with companies.  I live the Trisha that crawls into the bath 3 times a day and absorbs herself in books, that writes her own songs and sings them on camera, that has unfilled dreams and childhood wishes still lingering.

Humans are too complex to paint inside a box. Its time we stop presuming we understand someone, we know their intentions, we feel what they do, we get who they are, when in reality, we are only lucky enough to grace and be graced by slivers of their souls quite temporarily.

Sometimes I wonder if I walk away if the pain will stop. If I spend my time locked up in books I can control every emotion from this point forward. The truth is, I would be cheating myself from truly living. To give, to love, to hold the amazement of life in your hand and enjoy it, means you have to experience the bad with the good, the dark with the light, the ying and the yang.

So we live to fight another day and await the next laugh or tear. We support each other the best way we know how, through words, through sharing, through experiences. And we pray this will be our last heartache, but we know it wont.

I’ll leave you with words from Karissa herself in november: Go call your bestie, or your family. I promise it WILL make you feel better.

~Trisha

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